I go through this same type of situatuon. I'm engaged and for some reason, even after he said yes, and we set a date, and we got rings, I'm still feeling this cripplng insecurity. I've admitted to my issues and I'm trying my hardest to deal with my emotions that are definitely rooted in a history of abandonment and terrible relationships in the past. I needed to read this today. Thank you for heloung me get my thoughts in order!