This speaks to me, Victoria. Guys are notorious for not knowing what they want and trying to spare people's feelings. It seems to me that you're just growing into yourself. You're learning from those lessons and understanding what you want even more as you haven't gotten what you wanted before. I've been there. Guys have strung me along or tried to protect my feelings or ghosted me or were just "being nice". I reached that point myself. I'm glad you're there! :) Now, I've found a guy who's checking on me throughout the day, sending morning messages, and appreciating me for everything I do for him... that's what it's all about. A two-way relationship. Both people putting in the work.