What truly bothers me sometimes is when people tell me to "let go of the past," but it influences so much of the present. At the age now that I finally have the mental acuity to pick out those traumas in my childhood and connect them to the present-day. They've definitely come out not that I am married. It's so hard to be happy because those feelings don't disappear. Now it's about acknowledgment and justifying why I behave the way I do.